missing him.
seriously what is anything anymore, life doesnt even make sense i am always crying over a boy that lives 900 miles away that i met on vacation. he means the world to me i wish i could just be with him everyday i actually love him and think he is my soul mate i have never felt this way before and knowing i cant be with him breaks my heart a little more each day and they fact that we cant be together or have eachother just sucks i dont want anyone from home. i honestly know how military couples feel being away from eachother for so long…. i will be lucky to see him for a week every four months like what the hell… that isnt fair why must i be surrounded by those who dont want me like he does… he wants to marry me and all.. i am so inlove with him and i want this all to happen all these plans he has for us… for me to move there in 2 years when im 18 and we can just be together.. but what about these 2 years what if we fall inlove with other people… how could that happen i hate being alone and being worried. i am so worried our feelings will fade.. i am willing to fight for us but i dont think he is as willing as i am. he is everything to me now i feel so lost without him. how could this effect me this way i have no idea i met him for 3 days. the best 3 days of my life noone has ever made me feel as safe adn special as he has and now hes gone and now my effort as a 16 year old girl has to depend on my parents to get me there and back to see him so we dont become distant.. he is the boy of my dreams and this is something ill never forget i want to tell my children this story someday…. i want to tell our children but i have little hope for us since the distance and how much time left there is untill we can be together it is hard and im trying to make it through but i just dnt knw how
